Months later

Well, It's been far too long since my last post. Since then we've moved to Indianola. We live in a 3bdrm basement apartment. It's nice, but has some features that i miss of other apartments we've had. We don't have a dishwasher, which when i was a small kid i was one. It's not something I'm used to, but we didn't have them 20 years ago, so it's not really a big deal. Plus, this place is at least 30 years old...at least one year older than me! ha ha. Yep, I just celebrated my 29th birthday a mere 14 days ago. Whoopty doo!!! I'm sure no one cares, but i do, for a small reason, i can't believe it's been 10 years since i graduated high school, but i really can't believe I'm almost 30! I mean seriously, time flies so fast. I mean seriously, i remember being 18, and 19. I remember the horribly stupid choices i made, the guys i dated. How i was naive enough to equate sex with love. How i was gullible and wanted so badly to find a man who loved me. When we're young we think that everyone should see us as we do them. We think that people should understand how we feel without telling them. This is something we start to get around as we grow. Sometimes, we still feel like we should be special, like we should stand out in the crowd, like we are one in a million. It's crazy how as you grow you realize that you're not alone, and that you can feel special. I guess i can't say that when you find someone who loves you, knows all your secrets, past indiscretions, and feelings in your heart and loves you, you can feel like the one in a million in a crowd. My husband, he's an angry guy, he likes to argue, and fight (not physically but bicker back and forth and constantly push my buttons) but I love him with all my heart. He's a faithful man (which is a big one for me) he's honest about what matters, and is hard working. He busts his ass to support us, and while he is at heart a slacker guy, he always does what is necessary to make sure we have rent, our bills payed, and that we have what we need. I think it's an honorable thing, especially in this shitty economy where gas is almost 35 dollars for 8 gallons. That's ridiculous!! I thought this was the United States. We don't have a gas shortage, so lets tax the little man who is struggling to feed his family all the spare change he has so he can't feed his kid or make his way to work. Geez, the ways of the world. I'm going for now, will blog again sometime soon.